这里实在是我的马桶,用来倾倒,呕吐.那感受很久不曾有,上一次是在几年前了,居然能几天不吃也不饿.可见情绪和身体真的是紧紧得相连.
      不明白为什么一句话也不说只是在那里坐着也会受影响,然后居然会持续那么久,我可能真的进入了那个场，而你却没有，几番也不知道当说话费劲的时候就是我低落的时候。那其实多半还是因为我难以平衡，我不是应该要为你能在我这里畅快地不需要伪装而高兴的么，我不是应该要好好炫耀你的信赖的么。不敢，所以不痛快，甚至不能说，如果一定要有所舍弃才行，只有退却，因为我怕。拥有什么感情仅仅是在我净土里的事，那是为了无愧于我自己，任何事人都应隔绝，如果它真的那么容易的话。已经很久都很平和的，一直都很平和，就是这天，因为回到从前的情绪里让我痛恨自己，而我只是坐着，10分钟而已！
     它还是会继续下去，因这各种道不清的缘故，仅仅是因为我不放心，想要看着那一天。所以你懂什么是爱么。
     语言只是沙漏,能抖出多少真实地感受.如果痛苦可以言说，那已经不叫痛苦了。

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
Why take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down
If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Because I can only tell you that I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
And break choosing not to fight
If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Because I can only tell you that I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

哭了。